do you ever feel small
scale compared to what other people are doing/how other people are
thinking/what other people are working on and experiencing? i do. i sometimes
feel like i don't do enough compared to others; don't have enough new
experiences compared to others; but some of those experiences there's no way i
could even handle
for example, i could never be a doctor who performes surgery (but that's okay, because I never desired to be that - although I certainly appreciate the people who are great at that or i and lots of others wouldn't be alive)
for another example, i could never travel all over the united sates or travel other countries outside of the united states by myself for months (but that's something several friends of mine have done/are doing - and that's something part of me wishes i COULD do, but there's no way i could - and i'm not talking monetarily here; I'm talking about my mentality couldn't handle it on many different levels)
maybe some people might feel like they don't do enough compared to me
but then there's the fact that life should not be a comparison; it should be focused on everyone doing what's right/important/meaningful/ significant for them; everyone choosing to
arrange their lifetime and priorities as they choose
some people are primarily focused on kids/family, some people are primarily focused on art/reading/writing/ publishing, some
people are primarily focused on spirituality and growing in that realm...
for example, i could never be a doctor who performes surgery (but that's okay, because I never desired to be that - although I certainly appreciate the people who are great at that or i and lots of others wouldn't be alive)
for another example, i could never travel all over the united sates or travel other countries outside of the united states by myself for months (but that's something several friends of mine have done/are doing - and that's something part of me wishes i COULD do, but there's no way i could - and i'm not talking monetarily here; I'm talking about my mentality couldn't handle it on many different levels)
maybe some people might feel like they don't do enough compared to me
but then there's the fact that life should not be a comparison; it should be focused on everyone doing what's right/important/meaningful/
some people are primarily focused on kids/family, some people are primarily focused on art/reading/writing/
some people are more physically active (including experiencing a lot of different locations), some people are more mentally active (there brain focusing on all sorts of things, even if they're mostly staying in one place physically), some people are neither, some people are both...
i'm definitely one of the more mentally active/brain focused persons (in both bad and good ways) - thoughts, feeling, words words words, writing writing writing my thoughts and feelings - and often that feels very important and significant to me - but on a larger scale, is that personal expression relatively meaningless and insignificant?
even if so; even if i am really small scale, is that a bad thing?
lots of people are small scale in their own way right?
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small scale or not, i've had lots of different life experiences, even if they feel like an ongoing circle shape with ups & downs then another circle...
but sometimes i feel as if I'm darkly frothing rather than evolving..
but are dark froths a bad thing?
some people are primarily focused on themselves,some people are primarily focused on others, some people are primarily focused on themselves AND others
ReplyDeletesome people have no focus
some people don't know were their focus lies
some people have no interest or passion in themselves or others or life
some people focus on TV (instead of thinking about/expressing themselves much at all)
some people focus on the news, some of which is fake
I’m darkly frothing here & there
ReplyDeleterather than evolving (but
are dark froths a bad thing?)
am I bad?
am I bad?
am I bad?
am I bad?
am I bad?
am I good
(for nothing)?
am I good
(for nobody)?
am I good
(for a random screw)?
am i good
(for nothing)?
am I nothing?
am I nothing?
am I nothing?
am I nothing?
am I nothing?
Am I some sort of creepy sleeping
beauty that no one will ever kiss (accept/except
with a quick in & out hiss?)