Losing people who I thought were incredibly important, significant, and meaningful within my life really hurts me and causes me to question all kinds of things (including question myself – thinking ‘am I not good enough?’ and ‘did I not try hard enough?’).
I don’t desire to feel incredibly strongly about or committed to someone who will suddenly/quickly feel less strongly about me.
I don’t desire someone who takes more than he gives (creatively, professionally, or in any sort of relationship way) and/or who does not truly appreciate what he receives. I think that taking more than giving comes too close to chewing everything/everyone up and then suddenly spitting it out without really caring.
On a somewhat different but semi-related note, the phrase ‘what if I lose everything?’ sure as heck does not make me think about money. It makes me think about brain power, passion, caring and LOVE. Those are the kinds of things I do not want to lose, even (especially) in the midst of challenging/troubling/difficult times in my life.
I DO desire a uniquely powerful, caring, giving, loving, extra-special someone who is a true taste sensation, a wonderful treat, a gorgeous feast that will last & last.
Juliet Cook + poetry
Juliet Cook's website
NEW! Your Mouth Is Moving Backwards
Juliet Cook's NEW poetry chapbook, published by Ethel Zine & Micro Press, December 2023
NEW! CONTORTED DOOM CONVEYOR
Juliet Cook's NEW poetry chapbook, published by Gutter Snob Books, July 2023
NEW! red flames burning out
Juliet Cook's NEW poetry chapbook, published by Grey Book Press, April 2023
Short Poems of Violence and Chickens - a poetic collaboration by Juliet Cook and Darryl Shupe
A collaborative poetry chapbook by Juliet Cook and Darryl Shupe (Blood Pudding Press, 2022)
Histrionics Inside My Interior City
An online poetry micro-chapbook by Juliet Cook, published in June 2020, as part of the Ghost City Press Summer 2020 Series
The Rabbits With Red Eyes
A poetry chapbook by Juliet Cook - The Rabbits With Red Eyes (Ethel Zine & Micro Press, March 2020 and beyond)
Heaven We Haven't Yet Dreamed
A full-length poetry book by Juliet Cook, Diane Borsenik,Puma Perl, and Jeanette Powers (Stubborn Mule Press, September 2019)
Another Set of Ripped Out Bloody Pigtails
A poetry chapbook by Juliet Cook - Another Set of Ripped-Out Bloody Pigtails (The Poet's Haven, May 2019 and beyond)
DARK PURPLE INTERSECTIONS (inside my Black Doll Head Irises)
A poetry chapbook by Juliet Cook - DARK PURPLE INTERSECTIONS (Blood Pudding Press for Dusie Kollektiv 9, May 2019)
FROM ONE RUINED HUMAN TO ANOTHER (no longer available)
A poetry chapbook by Juliet Cook - From One Ruined Human to Another (CWP Collective Press, June 2018/Dark Particle Press, June 2019)
MALFORMED CONFETTI
A full-length poetry book by Juliet Cook (Crisis Chronicles Press, October 2018)
A RED WITCH, EVERY WHICH WAY
A collaborative full-length poetry book by Juliet Cook & j/j hastain (Hysterical Books, 2016)
Horrific Confection free ebook
Blood Pudding Press
Thirteen Myna Birds
I've cared about a lot of people deeply & "lost" them, though I've since realized that I cared for them way more than they cared for me. Unless you find someone really, really special, people will usually let you down. Sad, but true. That's why I prefer dogs. Just sayin'.
ReplyDeleteI hear you, but part of me still very strongly desires real, powerful, intense, passionate love.
Delete(P.S. I added your Gloomy Girl blog to my list of blogs on my Blood Pudding Press blog - leading me to wonder why most of my blog lists are there instead of here. Perhaps it's because I started that blog first or something...)